I’ve always felt blessed to have my birthday fall on New Year’s Day. It’s a time of slowing down from the rush of the holidays. Many of us take time to look back and evaluate the year that was while looking forward to the new. Some years it can feel a little disappointing after the ball drops and the parties end as we attempt to keep our resolutions and face winter head-on.
As I get older I’m discovering a strong desire to embrace winter on a much deeper level. I find myself wanting to linger in the quiet and darkness. I want hold on to it like an old, dear friend. Frankly, although I’ve always loved winter, these feelings surprised me. I assumed it was the result of celebrating a significant birthday, but the feelings remained.
About a week ago, a Park Seed Catalog (http://parkseed.com/) arrived in the mail. In my house that’s a big deal. We love to go through it and dream about the sumptuous produce we’ll enjoy next fall. My husband is the gardener … I’m just a foodie … so I handed the catalog off to him. Still I found myself thinking about it and in a flash I realized why winter resonates so deeply with me. It is my time of planting.
Winter metaphorically offers each of us the kind of potential afforded the seed plunged into earth’s darkness. I want to prepare an environment within myself that can unleash dreams on wings of prayers and in so doing find Myself. I believe such darkness is only accessible through heart-felt intuitive listening. It is an exquisitely personal, life changing inner journey. However, this does not mean it is selfish. In fact I would argue that the journey is best expressed through the creative way we live our daily lives.
Perhaps I can best express what I’m trying to say through one of my favorite quotes:
“To be a star, you must shine your own light, follow your own path, and don’t worry about the darkness, for that is when the stars shine brightest.” — Author Unknown
Happy New Year! May you shine brightly throughout 2012 … and always.
Marie



